Yeah but do you know what my problem is? Lately I kinda tested out where my limits are, and didn’t think about what I’m doing, I just went for it. But after a while I kinda realized that most of the guys are somehow only interested in the physical things they can experience with a women, and I’m tired of that. I wonder if there’s a guy out there who likes me for who I am and not for my looks. I wonder if there’s a guy out there who doesn’t only want a girlfriend because he hopes he can fuck her and throw her away in the end. I wonder if the idea of love I had in my mind for a while even exists. There’s so much that’s going on in my mind right now. I just don’t believe in love right now. That’s the only thing I can say.